Excerpts from the Peanut Gallery

When i run, i feel God's pleasure...

There is something about running that has taken a hold of me this semester. i mean i was a jogger before, but now its a bit different. maybe its the canal, maybe its the cold, maybe it is whatever is pent up inside me from being hunched over in front of a computer all day, every day.

So i was randomly going through people's blogs, people whom i dont even know and stumbled upon one from this girl who is somehow connected to trinity and she is in Costa Rica, living with a costa rican family. Instajealous. thats what i was.

you know when you havent thought about doing something that you love in a really long time? like snowboarding when the first snow starts to dust the mountains in october, but long before the mountains will be open?

i dont know how else to describe it, but that is the feeling i get, only magnified when i hear about someone else doing what i want to do in some place like Costa Rica. man, its been so long since i really thought about Guate and then all in one week, i get an email about some jobs there and a conversation with one of my buddies back in Antigua and i just wanna go- now.

Its been so long since i dreamed about being back in guate- i mean actually being there and thinking about what it looks like and how everyone smells and what they talk about over dinner and going to church with them and sitting on the chicken bus with them. i mean i have dreamed alot about this whole microfinance thing, but i havent put it in a real context, a place i know. and then it comes back to you and you realise the old friend you have been missing, the passion that has been kinda sputtering or quiet is still there, and more than anything- its such a relief- to know i have not lost it.

Its not that i am in any position to go anytime soon, but its just really good to know its still there, waiting for me. I dont want to miss out on anything, but i can't wait to get started. I also have this strange feeling like "job? no problem! they have to love me instantly, of course they will hire me and send me exactly where i want to go!" is this unrealistic? surely not!


so i run. i don't think for a few moments. and i can just dream, plan, scheme. its relief.

"When i run, I feel God's pleasure"
- eric liddel, chariots of fire.

posted by Kiki @ 9:19 p.m.